Checking Boxes
I only have a few minutes, but, krikey bananas, I'm so bored.
I few days ago, I made a sort of vow to myself that I would no longer play video-games at all (scrabble is an exception, and New World Colony—which I play with my brothers—is an exception for now).
Thus, having nothing by which to numb my mind, sitting in class has been painful.
He's such a kind man, good-hearted and such, but, once again, no learning is really taking place. Unlike many of my past professors, he's not full of hogwash, but I have not felt one bit sharpened in any class of his this whole semester. He just shares so much marginally useful information: not hogwash but nothing enlightening.
I'm bitter about academics, and I don't know how to overcome it. Deep down, I want to learn; I really do. I'm having trouble figuring out how to learn despite school. Giving up video-games will be helpful: I won't be numbed anymore, so I'll become more agitated. I'm doing all the paperwork; I'm checking all the boxes. It takes so much energy to be creative despite school.
Sigh.
Tutoring has been nice, though. It's one of the few parts of college right now that is educational and redeeming. I really love teaching. I love explaining. I love helping people understand. I love grasping complex concepts and disassembling them for others.
Class is over, so, for now, I'll go tutor.
Blah.
I few days ago, I made a sort of vow to myself that I would no longer play video-games at all (scrabble is an exception, and New World Colony—which I play with my brothers—is an exception for now).
Thus, having nothing by which to numb my mind, sitting in class has been painful.
He's such a kind man, good-hearted and such, but, once again, no learning is really taking place. Unlike many of my past professors, he's not full of hogwash, but I have not felt one bit sharpened in any class of his this whole semester. He just shares so much marginally useful information: not hogwash but nothing enlightening.
I'm bitter about academics, and I don't know how to overcome it. Deep down, I want to learn; I really do. I'm having trouble figuring out how to learn despite school. Giving up video-games will be helpful: I won't be numbed anymore, so I'll become more agitated. I'm doing all the paperwork; I'm checking all the boxes. It takes so much energy to be creative despite school.
Sigh.
Tutoring has been nice, though. It's one of the few parts of college right now that is educational and redeeming. I really love teaching. I love explaining. I love helping people understand. I love grasping complex concepts and disassembling them for others.
Class is over, so, for now, I'll go tutor.
Blah.
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