Michael's Form and Checking Phones
Fortunately and unfortunately, Michael has started to take on a shape. I still want to use his story as an exercise of freedom, but logic is trying so hard to take hold of it. It's not exactly bad, but it makes me think too hard. I think his story has great promise and could be used for something lucrative someday, but I really didn't want it to be a proper craft. I really wanted it to be like an extension of rambling. I wanted it to be a deeper expression in the form of fiction. Sure enough, each chapter has been eerily reminiscent of pieces of my life, and I'm starting to lose track of when my life forms the story or when the story forms my life.
Strange confession: I have made certain choices in my in-real-life life based on where I wanted Michael to go. Don't ask. It's trippy. Actually, do ask. I'd love to chat about the weird experience that it is.
I really need to learn how to compartmentalize my life. At first glance, that seems like a bad idea, right? Multitasking can be good. Integration is good. Genuineness is good. However, I've noticed how the machines are starting to chirp in my ears and break my focus. I'm talking about my phone. It really does cripple momentum when it's not handled properly. I'm checking messages, then checking email, then trying to write a few words, then checking messages, then checking Facebook, then checking ifunny.co, then checking my other email, then writing a few words, then checking, checking, checking. Checking all the things, too many things, every single one of the things.
Granted, I've been a little frantic as I've tried to piece together a business as well as quilting together a social life as well as trying to devote myself to every extracurricular activity under the sun. Still, that doesn't mean I have to dilute my energy, waiting for the noise-box to herald another distraction.
Meh. It's a process.
In other news, I was almost a lazy slug today. To the contrary, I was a productive slug. I thought about being a good-for-nothing since it was a snow day, but I realized that I could do so much on the computer. I got to play Carcassonne with my mom though! It had been too long. It was a good game, and we both scored over 200. I love the board games.
Currently, I'm not sure if I'm biding my time waiting to hear from a friend, if I'm avoiding Michael, or if I'm avoiding going to sleep. Ca-ca-ca-craziness.
In other other news, it's super hilarious, but I can't talk about it right now. But it's hilarious. Lolz!
I'm gonna go pretend to work on Michael then probably give up.
Ta!
Strange confession: I have made certain choices in my in-real-life life based on where I wanted Michael to go. Don't ask. It's trippy. Actually, do ask. I'd love to chat about the weird experience that it is.
I really need to learn how to compartmentalize my life. At first glance, that seems like a bad idea, right? Multitasking can be good. Integration is good. Genuineness is good. However, I've noticed how the machines are starting to chirp in my ears and break my focus. I'm talking about my phone. It really does cripple momentum when it's not handled properly. I'm checking messages, then checking email, then trying to write a few words, then checking messages, then checking Facebook, then checking ifunny.co, then checking my other email, then writing a few words, then checking, checking, checking. Checking all the things, too many things, every single one of the things.
Granted, I've been a little frantic as I've tried to piece together a business as well as quilting together a social life as well as trying to devote myself to every extracurricular activity under the sun. Still, that doesn't mean I have to dilute my energy, waiting for the noise-box to herald another distraction.
Meh. It's a process.
In other news, I was almost a lazy slug today. To the contrary, I was a productive slug. I thought about being a good-for-nothing since it was a snow day, but I realized that I could do so much on the computer. I got to play Carcassonne with my mom though! It had been too long. It was a good game, and we both scored over 200. I love the board games.
Currently, I'm not sure if I'm biding my time waiting to hear from a friend, if I'm avoiding Michael, or if I'm avoiding going to sleep. Ca-ca-ca-craziness.
In other other news, it's super hilarious, but I can't talk about it right now. But it's hilarious. Lolz!
I'm gonna go pretend to work on Michael then probably give up.
Ta!
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