Working on Quietness

Do you ever just feel ultra lazy?

Today was a snow day. I woke up way too early, had a lovely chat with my lovely lady, and then wrote some emails.

I read in bed. I worked on some boring paper-worky stuff. I did some laundry.

AND I FEEL SO LAZY

I might be lazy — but I think I mainly just have bad sleeping habits. Yes! I know: I've lamented about this forever. I'm moving soon and acquiring a different bed, so that might change some things. We'll see.

In other news, naps are nice.

Can I be really honest? I wanted to talk about the myth of scientific "proof," but that would require focus and energy — and I don't wanna.

I'll get there. I'll get there soon, but today is a snow day. I don't take many days off. It may not look like it from the outside, but I'm always piecing together one of my many projects. I don't rest a lot — like on the inside. Partially, I'm excitable and extreme, so that's a thing. Partially, I need to rest into the goodness of God more.

Isaiah 30:15 "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength."

I mean, I'm not trying to prooftext a full-on theology out of that little excerpt, but it's a striking statement: repentance, rest, quietness, trust.

I'm learning how to be quiet. I'm learning how to trust. It's huge: both the energy required in the process and the resulting satisfaction.

I've never been much for patience — not with my own life anyway.

I'm really patient with students. I think it's because I can see their process; I can see that they need to work through things gradually. I don't see it so well for myself.

I think I often have it figured out, and I just want to rocket forward. Sometimes, I do figure things out — but not everything.

"In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength."