Some Scattered Thoughts

Only 311 words. I was distracted by a lot of other things. It started with a kindergarten visiting Starbucks. It was way too adorable. The kindergarten principal, vice principal, and one of the teachers each read a book to the 20 or so kids.

It broke my heart. I've wanted kids for a long time now.

Besides that, I had to transcribe some notes for my upcoming vlog and ideas for publicizing my writing. I also started reworking my budget. I also had to jot some notes about a small article I want to write.

Last night, I was playing Destiny. The game itself is nothing too spectacular. Somehow, though, it hooked me. Borderlands (another game) is 50% RPG + 50% FPS. In my mind, I've always said Destiny is 50% Borderlands + 50% FPS = 25% RPG 75% FPS. It's just enough RPG to appease me.

In any case, it's a chaotic game full of space-jumping and explosions and guns and explosions. Mom asked what the point of such a game is. I asked her what the point of Yhatzee is. She said it's relaxing. It struck me that Destiny, in some ways, is relaxing. My brain is always crackling with too many thoughts. Destiny (and many other games like it) have enough chaotic activity to focus many parts of my brain. There are probably healthier outlets, but it does a good job of aiming many parts of my mind in the same direction, which provides a type of psychological relief. Writing does this a little bit. Puzzles (not flat jigsaw but complex turnable ones) do this pretty well.

I don't mind my scattered brain; I embrace it. I'm learning how to focus it. Still, it's cumbersome sometimes. I don't want a quieter mind; I want a more focused mind.

For now, I'm gonna go home and try to be productive.

Ooh rah.